Tuesday, July 08, 2008

Home Sweet Home

I miss home.

I miss my Mummy Loi and DaddyLoi.

I miss BigSis Loi's and SmallSis Loi's screaming voices.

I miss my nephew.

I miss my extended family and friends.

I just miss home.


The only picture I could upload. A lake in the university.

Don't get me wrong. University so far has been amazing, but there really is nothing like home. I guess I understand what they mean by "Home Sweet Home" now.

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Suet wrote this entry, and I wondered will I open Pandora's box albeit knowing that it contains sorrow, disappointment and lots of pain.

I hesitated before I commented, I thought about it for awhile. Nobody has ever asked me that question before.

I said...

"If you’d asked me a few years ago I would have said no.

Now, I’ll say yes because I know I will regret the fact that I did not open it later on. Besides, good can discovered from bad. If we don’t open the box we’ll never know.

Take some risks in life as some people will say. As long as I know you, risk is not something that’ll stop you from anything. So whatever it is that the box contained, I’m sure you’ll pull through it, coming out stronger than ever.

Love from penang."


It's true. A few years back, without a second thought, I will NEVER open the box. Ignorance is bliss.

Haha, but how I laugh at that saying now. Ignorance is bliss. Being ignorant the last time did not make me happy, what more blissful.

Now without a second thought, I will open the box.

11 comments:

clem said...

i don't know if i can handle not being home studying abroad. part of me wants to stay in msia to complete my studies because i'm already so comfortable here, and another part of me wants to try life on other parts of the world.

it's such a huge dilemma for me. leaving friends & family behind is one major factor that's holding me back. aih wtf i wanted to blog about this but ended up rambling in your comment box instead.

anyway that lake photo is so serene~

i think we all need to learn the harsh facts of reality at some point. that is why i'd open every box in the world to reveal every agonising truths and that hopefully at the end of it, i'd learn something and be a stronger person.

hL said...

from Labuan to Clem : haha i think u can get used to it la clem. providing u mix around. now my life here is hang out with my friends, whether in cafeteria chatting or in the comp lab surfing or in the room smoking and playing chor tai ti. and ill be back in my dorm just to sleep and bathe. i even shit in my friend's dorm cos my toilet no seat. hahahaha. it's definitely possible so if u do have the chance to go just go. tho u might regret it at first but our subang kaki will be friends even after we study. BTW!!! VODKA HERE 33 BUCKS A FUCKING BOTTLE!!! got absolut PEAR oso!!

jessieloi said...

clem,
I say you should go. Yup yup I do miss home, alot! but when you get used to it. I came here thinking I will regret it, thinking that I will be extremely homesick but I'm doing fine here because in the end I realised that it's not too bad after all.

I guess it's like opening a box, you don't know what's in it but yet you still open it to find out.


heng,
excuse me budak labuan. i don't care your toilet got seat or not you better study hard. don't drink booze all the time! and make sure you buy chocolates!

hL said...

chocolates got after eight! haha i saw when i went to town the other day. but here the assortments isnt much. and i cant wait to go back home! haha. and knowing tht my friend's dad passed away today and he wont be here for 10 days is gonna make my stay here harder. its like starting over swt. cant even use his toilet anymore

kai tzin said...

Clem, please, just go. wtf sounds like chasing you away, but you know what i meant. :)

AH HENG I WANT 5 different BACARDIS, and a ship of chocolates kthxbai.

eh Loi your lake there seems like can play golf wtf so lame i'm so bored in library.

kai tzin said...

and i agree that...

" it's definitely possible so if u do have the chance to go just go. tho u might regret it at first but our subang kaki will be friends even after we study."

;)

jessieloi said...

hl,
no assortments never mind! as long as I got m&ms and after8 i'm fine. =) But m&ms are priority. heh.

10 days will pass very fast. DOn't worry. You have the annoying bitchy girl, oh yeah and me too. Hahahha!

But maybe when you feel like shitting and got no toilet, then that may be the longest seconds ever.

kaitzin,
HAHAHAH PLAY GOLF?!?!? Hahahahh!

Shireen K said...

errrrrrr BLOG summore.. study laaaaaaaaaaa......

glad u are having fun at the same time missing home... hehehe ..

so when u coming back?

jessieloi said...

shireen,
now i'm still free mah. Hahah! and if I keep studying and dont blog i think i'll go crazy.

i'm not sure when i'll be back yett...

Anonymous said...

First and foremost, DO NOT WALK THE PATH OF GUILT IN LIFE.. resulted in having secrets, painful ones at times. As of 'opening the box' my opinion is that whatever there is inside which is for us to open, of which one should do so; once open, do ponder over it, taking action if required.. all this should work towards a BETTER tomorrow, be it a day, a career,a relation or any aspects in life.

jessieloi said...

anonymous,
I totally agree with you!